THIS IS MY TIME ! (large letters because its a large thing in my life ) ##
I don't know how much time I now have to live my life but I have decided that it will be as peaceful and free as it possibly can be. Here are some of the things that have come about from this decision..
- I told my sons and their partners I can no longer take any drama, it has scarred my heart forever and I now need peace, so please, unless you really need me to know things , please deal with them the best you can without my knowledge. I also told them that it is because of how much I love them, that I have made that decision, its because although I always want to help, always want to make things better, that I have in the past been there for them so much. But … I am not in control of any of it, and never can be. All it does is breaks my heart again or worries me until I am sick.
- I have stopped stressing about not posting things like cards and things to friends. I find it difficult as well as expensive to send Christmas cards and stuff to all my friends and the pain of forgetting someone (which I am getting terrible at ) is more stress and worrying so instead I now give to charity.
- I buy all my grandchildren (11 of them ) a birthday gift but I have now stopped Christmas present buying for them, they each have two lots of parents who make Christmas special for them. I have no idea what they each like individually, and I don't like getting it wrong, Plus they do not even notice with all their other expensive gifts. So now I only buy for their parents.
There are a few more things I have done and will do, to make my later life more stress free and peaceful, they include making more memories with family without spending much money,gentle happy times. They also include using all the nice things I have including perfumes make up, aromatic candles etc on a daily basis instead of keep for 'best'. Also I now do not care what other people think about me, my choices, my furniture, my house, my looks etc. Everything I do now will be for myself. hubby and the people I love, just because ….
And so I do believe that 2019 is something of a truly NEW YEAR.
I am wishing you all the very best for 2019 too. My friends are in my loved ones list and I hope to include you all in my NEW YEAR.
Hugs and love. June x